…but I’m going to do it anyway.
Life is like a giant puzzle with like, 4,163 pieces (I did the math with a calculator and everything!). Growing up, we have no idea what that puzzle is going to look like. We need to keep adding pieces. How do we add pieces, you ask? Great question! Every event that shapes us, that molds our personality, is a puzzle piece. These events are usually firsts and are coupled with the phrase “character building”: the first time you feel really good about a job well done, the first time you realize a note from Mom isn’t going to get you out of trouble, the first time your heart is broken. Sometimes they are recurring events that are trying to get your attention. With each critical cognitive and emotional event, a puzzle piece is placed. Soon, you start to see what you have the potential to be.
This is my journey. Not a cool one like Jesus, Luke, Harry, or one of the other guys from One Direction, but a journey none-the-less. And it’s happening a bit late but it’s happening. Looking back on certain events when I was absolutely brilliant (please, hold your applause), a puzzle piece is added to the big picture. However, I was so wrapped up in my own bullshit, I didn’t take the time to learn from them. I was blinded to the lesson and my potential, therefore, I couldn’t see my picture. Well, I’m still wrapped up in my neurotic bullshit but my eyes are open! I know what I want to be when I grow up you guys!
Of course, my journey hasn’t ended. I don’t know if it ever will end and frankly, I don’t want it to. Personal growth shouldn’t wane with age. Hell, there’s a reason she’s Grandma Moses and not Blackout Chick Moses. She continued to discover new ways to learn and stopped drinking Jagermeister (citation needed).
Take note of your puzzle pieces. They are made of your true talents and strengths. You may see the image taking shape immediately but don’t worry so much if you don’t. It’s there, just waiting for you to believe in it.